Finally, I decided to send her a message. But I didn’t handle that well. I totally screwed it up. She thinks I am a strange man now. And I probably won’t talk to her in the near future as I am becoming annoying. ☹
We just met 5 days. And she gone away. From now, it’s been 2 months. I was preparing for what to say for days. I was afraid of losing her – as a friend or whatever. Well, to ask her out is the thing I wanted most, but she said she’s not here. I was thinking about her for weeks and now I failed, I think I can’t sleep tonight. FUCK!!!
Every time I am telling myself is OK somebody does not like you. I admit, I was thinking too much about her, too much beautiful things. And I don’t know if I should let these thoughts go away. I was also preparing to tell her all my thoughts. But I was so afraid of losing her that I didn’t say anything.
I wish some one could tell me what to do.